gaaaah, it's so frustrating. College life really is starting to
taking over my real life. I don't have time to reading books or even do
the laundry. Actually I do have some minutes (maybe), but I don't feel
like reading for minutes. Especially for a page turner, how can I read
it in minutes and not feel so curious about it? so, my imaginary
readers, I am sorry I can't update about books soon.
I just feel homesick. I feel bored. I feel nauseous. Lately I realized this feelings and I become more idealistic. I think "what is life all about?" "why there must be a college, if experience can teach you more?"
All
of this become a routine. I wake up, brush my teeth, take a bath, 7 a.m
class till 6.30 p.m. and after that I take a bath again, and (maybe)
checking what's going on in the internet (I don't watch TV), and work on
my assignments, and I already feel tired before I can finish it, so I
hit the bed, and continue it in the morning (maybe). It happens every
Monday-Thursday. I do have holiday on Friday, and weekend, though. But I have to
clean my room, continue working on my paper, and more hours to sleep.
I
know I can't have any solution or I can't ease it by talking about it
here. But I just keep writing, I don't know, I just feel like it. The
clock in my room is ticking, and I can hear it. I know I have to
continue working, but I can't even concentrate.
For my
friends who know me, I know that they know I'm not that busy. But
actually I do. I'm not in an organization or something. Organizations
and stuff like that is not my thing. I love reading and watching people.
I read some news. Knowledge is everything. I'd rather be knowledgeable
and smart than have the highest score in class or have so many friends and become popular.
yeah, I
know I want straight A's too, but I just feel that some classes are not
efficient in a way (I'm not saying it useless). Too much assignments
didn't help.
hhhh, I'm gonna stop here. Stop
complaining haha. thanks for reading. this is college, and I have to get
used to it. I hope we can get used to it. wish me luck ;)
have a nice day!
in case you're wondering, I am a real person btw, not an imaginary reader, and I really enjoyed reading your blog(I don't want to exaggerate here but well I really do enjoyed it). your blog is good and you should feel good
ReplyDeletewow! I feel glad! hahaha, who are youu? I want to read yours too. but maybe it's not special anymore if I know you. haha
Deleteyeah, I feel good now (and actually a little bit weird that I actually have someone who enjoy reading my blog) hahaha