Sky is not the limit, I am

Last night is totally a slap-in-the-face for me. All this time, I grumbled a lot about my problems. It made my eyes so blurred that I can't see the reality. World is more cruel than I ever noticed. I was sad just because I built walls around me, then I trapped in a room -- that I created myself, with my sadness and negativity. Now, I feel stupid for being such a weak girl.

This is my favorite quote from Gloria so far:

Manny : Whoa, whoa, whoa. What is this? Where's my soft-boiled egg?

Gloria : I scrambled it. It's good for you to try new things.
Manny : I don't want to try new things. You can't just spring this on me.
Gloria : I have bad news, Manny. This is not the biggest curve ball that life is going to throw you.

EXACTLY. I should've keep it in my mind everytime I feel low: This is not the biggest curve ball that life is going to throw you.
No, this quote is not the slap. It's actually a song, Something More by Nick Vujicic. Totally awestruck. Most wonderful music video that I've ever seen :)

 A big thanks to my friend, who told me about this song. It really means something. Especially when my friend told me that Nick still keep a pair of shoes in his closet.. A pair of shoes.. that means a pair of hopes that he keep believing. :)

I feel both happy and sad about the shoes. I don't know why it makes me smile eventhough my heart is broken. It just wonderful that Nick believes wholeheartedly. :) Nick was once asked: "what kind of husband I am gonna be, if I can't hold my wife's hands?" - which made me cried even harder - "I know I can't. I can't hold my wife hands, but someday I knew I could. Someday I will, maybe in the other life." (I have no idea whether this part is true, because my friend loves exaggerating things, but screw that. I believe it, too.)

By the way, Nick is now married to a beautiful girl and he is soon to be Dad! If one day, I meet him, I will hug him and say thanks for the song.

They said: “Limits exist only in the mind”

So yeah, "Don't believe what your eyes are telling you. All they show is limitation. Look with your understanding, find out what you already know, and you'll see the way to fly.” - Richard Bach

"The only limits to the possibilities in your life tomorrow are the buts you use today." - Les Brown

Have a nice holidays :)

2012

last day on 2012! oh my God! I know I said it like thousand times, but yeah, future is always scary for meee!

But as others, I want to learn every lesson I've got this year. And also, I'll make a to-do-list for 2013. First of all, I want to apologize to everybody for.. I don't know, maybe I was being such a pill orrrr I was just react as exactly I should, because you're being such a pill all the time. kidding. I'm kidding when I say kidding. haha mindblowin.

I know I've changed. I mean seriously, idk since when, but I have bad temper. I am not used to be like that, I swear. yeah, I don't like me either. I suddenly have this giant ball of negative emotions that perhaps had been buried in me after all this time, and when someone put a needle on it, BAM. haha. On my defense, I really felt some people were being very very annoying. Not to mention, kinda stupid. *omg, that sounds so evil, fenny*

My other explanation is, I don't have things I used to have. I am far away from my family. College is keeping me busy, and I meet the same people all the time, which make me sick of it. I don't even have enough me-time. Fyi, I love to be alone. First, when you're alone, you can do anything you want, without anybody gives unnecessary comments. Second? well, I'm kind of a social awkward haha. Let's just call it wallflower.

I remember once, when I was in the high school, my heart was broken because this one guy (I was teenager, you know) and it made me sad at school. But the when I got home, things got better. Sharing stories and laughter with mom and sisters, always make me feel better. Love is always there. Now? I don't know how to make things better everytime I get tired of college routines. I feel blue. I feel alone, not in the way I like.

The good news is, I'll be home soon. ok, not very soon. January 21st, to be exact. And I hope I will be the girl I used to be :)

By the way, I made a playlist for you haha. It's just that I am now a fan of Ed Sheeran, and I just want you to listen to his song. This song, The A Team, is about a girl with drugs (looks like it's crystal meth) and then she died (what is wroooong with me). hahaha. I picked a Christmas song as well, O holy night by Lea Michelle. Incredibly beautiful :) Another song from Glee Cast is Here's to us. Perfect song for fixing all of this. Aaand, I dreamed a dream by Anne Hathaway!! She has a nice voice! Ok, enjoy it ;)

P.S: "Sometimes being alone gives you space to grow." -Mariz

Long time no post

Hi, human. Finally, I have time to write. I was extremely busy last week! I mean, seriously, it's been like the most hectic week ever. I am far far away from real life. It's been like everybody changed into zombies, but unfortunately this kind of zombie still have works to do and have deadline as well. Ha!

Next week is the last week of this term.

Thank God it's almost over. I can breathe a sigh of relief for a while.

It's still a loooong way to go. Usually the last week is the climax of every asdfghjkl. But, the week after is holidays! 2 weeks of holidays. Then again, unfortunately, final exam is coming as well.

Enough said.

Hey, frankly, I'm using my old blog URL. I am back! woohoo. I decided to come back because I feel silly for escaped the other time. Last week is a super rough week for me, but I tried to stand strong and boom, everything turned out okay. So, mental note, next time if problems coming up and you feel everything is against you, just fight back. In the cool way, of course! Life always a little chaotic, but hey, even Summer said "Color my life with the chaos of trouble."

Slowly but surely, my target is getting closer. Will tell you guys about it when it's already in my hand. Way to go!

btw, I am so tempted to write all about what happened lately, but it's just too much, and I confused where to start.There are also soooo many videos that I want to share. Tonight, I decided to tell you about Hand Jive!

so, the other week, Glee do the Hand Jive. And I think it's a really fun song. this is the full performance video:

I did a little researched about hand jive, and I found the Broadway version. Here it is:



it's only 25 seconds, but I really love it! :)

By the way, today is 12-12-12. December, 12th 2012. Nothing really special about today, though. Only, this morning, my video project has been shown. Me and friends were sooo excited about it. Share to you later!

OK, I'm gonna hit the bed.

Bye, good nite!

Of Monsters and Men - Little Talks

  Well tell her that I miss our little talks 
  Soon it will all be over and buried with our past 
  We used to play outside when we were young 
  And full of life and full of love

 Some days, I don't know if I am wrong or right 
 Your mind is playing tricks on you, my dear      

'Cause though the truth may vary
 This ship will carry 
 Our bodies safe to shore

 Hey!

 You're gone gone gone away I watched you disappear
 All that's left is a ghost of you 
 Now we're torn torn torn apart 
 There's nothing we can do
 Just let me go we'll meet again soon

 I'll see you when I fall asleep

 Hey!

One of my favourite songs :>
 

Everybody Wants To Rule The World

Looove this song. originally by Tears For Fears. Everybody Wants To Rule The World!! but this video is a glee version of it (hope you don't hate glee).

I'm soo busy lately, so I don't really have enough time to update about Extremely Loud and Incredibly Close (I've been read halfway through it, and it's sssooo good!) but, hope this video make it up to you, my imaginary readers! haha. will share some part of the book, soon.

ok, it's 5 a.m. and I have test today. wish me luck! :)

Bright, Bright Lights

Can't get you out of my mind
So I, try and get space go outside
But then there you are
Never very far from me here
Try and discuss the simplicity and love of a
Wood burning fire, in front of me
Think of other times
Ignore wishes that you were mine

Bright, bright lights
Spotlight makes it hard to see the stars at night
Everyday has become my stage and I
Feel I have made
One, two, three many mistakes

Lets go the speed of light
So we can stop, stand still in time
Six seventy one million miles an hour we'll run
Exist with our own rules of the world
Where things that happen here aren't told
Cover up with the truth
That I'm not really with you

What is fair in this fake world of reality
I am scared that you'll go home and forget about me
Is it yet windy enough for the city to just blow you away
Have you gathered enough facts for you and I to be okay
If the high road is the road we must take
Well instead I've now decided we don't need roads
We'll float away
We'll float away
We'll float away

One two three many mistakes
One two three many mistakes
One two three many mistakes

Bright, bright, lights

A single by Nellie Veitenheimer :)

Everybody Hurts

When your day is long and the night, the night is yours alone
When you're sure you've had enough of this life, well hang on
Don't let yourself go..
Cause everybody cries and everybody hurts sometimes..
Sometimes everything is wrong..

Well, everybody hurts sometimes, everybody cries
So, hold on..

Nellie - If I Were A Boy

 
If I were a boy..
I think I could understand 
How it feels to love a girl  
I swear I'd be a better man
 
I'd listen to her  
'Cause I know how it hurts  
When you lose the one you wanted 
'Cause he's taking you for granted 
And everything you had got destroyed 

But you're just a boy  
You don't understand  
How it feels to love a girl  
Someday you wish you were a better man..
 
You don't listen to her 
You don't care how it hurts  
Until you lose the one you wanted 
'Cause you're taking her for granted  
And everything you had got destroyed  
But you're just a boy..

Payung Teduh - Kita adalah Sisa-Sisa Keikhlasan Yang Tak Diikhlaskan

Kita tak semestinya berpijak diantara
Ragu yang tak berbatas
Seperti berdiri ditengah kehampaan
Mencoba untuk membuat pertemuan cinta

Ketika surya tenggelam
Bersama kisah yang tak terungkapkan
Mungkin bukan waktunya
Berbagi pada nestapa
Atau mungkin kita yang tidak kunjung siap

Kita pernah mencoba berjuang
Berjuang terlepas dari kehampaan ini
Meski hanyalah dua cinta
Yang tak tahu entah akan dibawa kemana

Kita adalah sisa-sisa keikhlasan
Yang tak diikhlaskan
Bertiup tak berarah
Berarah ke ketiadaan
Akankah bisa bertemu
Kelak didalam perjumpaan abadi

Mad World

Hide my head I wanna drown my sorrow 

No tomorrow, no tomorrow
And I find it kind of funny, I find it kind of sad  

The dreams in which I'm dying are the best I've ever had  

I find it hard to tell you, I find it hard to take 

When people run in circles its a very, very..

Mad world, mad world

thanks for telling me this song. I like it. a lot :)

Hello :) Goodbye :(

You say "Yes", I say "No".
You say "Stop" and I say "Go, go, go".
Oh no..
You say "Goodbye" and I say "Hello, hello, hello".
I don't know why you say "Goodbye", I say "Hello, hello, hello".
I don't know why you say goodbye, I say hello.

You Make My Dreams Come True

a few minutes more

"It's not very easy living all alone
My friends try and tell me find a man of my own
But each time I try I just break down and cry
'Cause I'd rather be home feeling blue
So I'm saving all my love for you...

I've got to get ready just a few minutes more
Gonna get that old feeling when you walk through that door
'Cause tonight is the night for feeling alright"

- Saving All My Love for You

who you are

 hey, you. long time no post.
so busy at college, but it's kind of fun.

so.. this song, yes, I know it's so last year, but this song has a meaningful lyrics.
Lately, I working on build my character.
I become more confident, and do things I want to do.
I don't care if people say I'm weird, because actually, I'm happy if the other see me that way.
you can call me weird, but I call myself as unique :)

to you, I hope you have found yourself as well.
and if you haven't, you will.

"..It's okay not to be okay.
Sometimes it's hard to follow your heart.

Just be true to who you are..

There's nothing wrong with who you are.."

FUN. is FUN

Have you ever heard about this indie pop band, named Fun.?
if your answer is no, I'll tell you about them.
just like the name, they are FUN.
fun songs, fun rhythm, fun lyrics. I love all about them. :)

Here some random lyrics from their album "Some Nights":

There are some nights I hold on to every note I ever wrote.

Growing old is getting old.
I often find myself here thinking:
about the birds, the boats, and past loves that flew away or started sinkin'


And now all my loves that come back to haunt me.
My regrets and texts sent to taunt me.


You know that I am home, so darling if you love me
Would you let me know?


Some nights I break down and cry.
I’ll put one foot in front of the other one.
I don’t need a new love, or a new life.
Just a better place to die.


And it's all alright.
I guess it's all alright.
I got nothing left inside of my chest,
But it's all alright.

we were fools to think that nothing could go wrong.


I knew there’d come a day,
When all was said and done,
And everything I want is everything but gone
All my big mistakes are bouncing off your wall.
The bottles never break, the sun will never come
So come on let me in.
I will be the sun.
I will wake you up.
I’ll move slow.
Just open up your heart, open up your heart, open up your heart.

Why don't we break the rules already?
Well, some nights I wish that this all would end
'Cause I could use some friends for a change
And some nights I'm scared you'll forget me again
Some nights I always win.
The other night, you wouldn't believe the dream I just had about you and me.


Like starlight crashing through the room, we'll lose our feathers
Yes, I know it hurts at first but it gets better
I feel so all alone
No one's gonna fix me when I'm broke
How do you cry with inanimate eyes?
You're never gonna smile with the way that you are.


It's hard to keep a straight face when I just want to smile.
If you could see the look that's in your eyes.


There are some nights I wait for someone to save us
But I never look inward, try not to look upward
And some nights I pray a sign is gonna come to me


But usually, I'm just trying to get some sleep...


Some nights!


Some nights I rule the world.


I set all my regrets on fire
Cause I know I’ll never take the time
To unpack my missteps and call all of my friends
I could be more clever,
And I know I could be more strong,
And I know I could be more clever,
And I know I could be more clever.


Carry me home tonight
Just carry me home tonight


Tonight, we are young
So let's set the world on fire
We can burn brighter than the sun.


If you're lost and alone
or you're sinking like a stone,
carry on..
May your past be the sound
of your feet upon the ground,
carry on.. 


Cause we are
We are shining stars
We are invincible
We are who we are
On our darkest day,
when we’re miles away..
So we’ll come,
we will find our way home..

I won't give up

beautiful song :)

Melpo Mene - I Adore You

Oh yes, I adore you :>

I had notice, that lately I became a fan of Coldplay!! tadaa

Don't know since when, but if I not mistaken, it's started because of I found out Fix You is beautiful,
then later I found out Paradise, a really wonderful song.

 this elephant thing is cute, isn't it? :3

I'm start thinking what about change my blog's name to Paradise?
well, I'm still thinking about that. we'll see. :)

Coldplay - Us Against The World

Oh morning come bursting, the clouds, Amen.
Lift off this blindfold, let me see again
And bring back the water, let your ships roll in.
In my heart she left a hole

The tightrope that I'm walking just sways and ties
The devil as he's talking with those angel's eyes
And I just want to be there when the lightning strikes
And the saints go marching in

And sing slow-ow-ow-ow it down

Through chaos as it swirls
It's us against the world

Like a river to a raindrop, I lost a friend
My drunken as a Daniel in a lion's den
And tonight I know it all has to begin again
So whatever you do, don't let go

And if we could float away
Fly up to the surface and just start again
And lift off before trouble
Just erodes us in the rain

Sing slow-ow-ow-ow it down
Oh Slow-ow-ow-ow it down

Through chaos as it swirls
It's just us against the world
Through chaos as it swirls
It's us against the world

Coldplay - Paradise

This song and the music video amazed me :)