Not Yet

so, this morning, I actually should input my subjects for this semester, college thing. but the website is still not open yet, so I want to post something before I forget again.

the thing is, a few days ago I watched HIMYM marathon on TV, and I watched this episode about Marshall and Lily have a bet. Lily betting Marshall that Ted will never get back together with Robin.

it seems to be true, because Robin said she doesn't love Ted and finally moved out from his apartment. so then Lily said "For Ted's sake, I hate to say this, but: Pay up.”

But then, here's the thing that really bothers me: Marshall said "Not yet." with a peculiar smile!!! what is thaaat?! the betting is still on, and the chance that Ted and Robin will be end up together is still there! Yeah, I know that Barney is getting married with her, but what if Barney will die or make up his mind, then Robin will get back to Ted?

ARGH I just don't want it to happen. I don't know why this is really bothers me and I don't even know why I write about this on my blog. I want Robin to be with Barney.

btw, this is the first day of August. I just hope this month will be okay. I had a rough night, well it's about 1 A.M. till around 3 and I know it's already 1 august, which mean I had a really bad start for this month, but it's okay. I know it will be.

and I read The Perks of Being a Wallflower again. I just love this book, I think it's my favorite. I've read about half of the book now, and I will write something about this book (again).

lately I felt so confused, I am being not consistent about my feelings. Someone told me to not thinking about things. and I thought yes, maybe I was just being overthink. but then he said weird things, really weird things, and it went like hours. I was actually so sleepy, but I can't leave him in a condition like that, so I was listening to him patiently, but it's getting worse. He said something really bad about me and about us. and I just feel sad. I thought he's drunk. but it's impossible. I didn't know what happened to him. I was upset, really.

I just don't know what to do. and like Charlie said, "As much as I feel sad, I think that not knowing is what really bothers me."