Curiosity

sooo, today curiosity beats me again. Not really sure about my feeling.
Not really sure whether I've moved on or not. But it seems I have. well, hopefully I have. What really matter is sometimes I have temptations, you know, to check on the internet. I mean, I can search/read everything. What I want to know, what I don't want to know but I've already read it so then I wished I never read it.
Is that normal?
I know, when you're reading this, maybe you will get confused.
Because I don't want to make it clear. I don't want certain people to know about this. In the other hand, I want somebody to help me figure things out. but who?
I can not just waiting somebody to catch all these hints I'm dropping.
and is there anybody out there who can help me except my own self?

All I can do is writing. At least for now.